Changes

Sande brought a flower over to wish me happy new year. It was a welcome gift and helped to cheer me up with all the sickness and emotional stress I have been feeling. I decided to document it with photos as it began to open up and bloom. We all watched with interest to see exactly what kind of flower it would turn out to be. We all knew that it would become the flower that it was intended to be, but we didn’t know what that was. We all guessed at the potential it had and felt the excitement of witnessing the outcome. It became a beautiful flower, with more blooms in it than I could tell even as it opened up. It was more beautiful than I thought possible.

For me, it turned into a metaphor of life in general, but also more personal for these beginning days with Hunter and Ellie. With all of these changes, I have had a difficult time. Our time together and the outcome is known by God, but I can’t see what he sees. I know that our situation has great potential, to be beautiful and grand. And I know that it all depends on the choices that I make. I know I must rely on the spirit to guide me for it to turn out right..and hopefully more beautiful than we even expected.